I have not had a day to myself in quite some time now; and this is very much needed considering all that has been going on. I have not had any personal time to digest that there is going to be a new baby here. Yes...a NEW baby for 2014; what a slew of complex emotions the past couple weeks have been.
This was unplanned (I was using the natural method and this worked well for a while, however I think the last month the timing was just right for a new Kelly per my body).
No worries! This is what we are here to do, right? Live long, prosper, and procreate? Maybe not in those words verbatim, but I think any negative feelings had towards this condition are purely social and do not reflect my true inner beliefs about having a children. In fact, I feel very lucky to be in this situation, yet I honestly feel as though I have done something wrong at times because of the pressures I feel from work, other family members and peers in general.
Whatever the case or high/low emotion, this is happening; the Kelly Dynasty grows larger, and this is a perfect Christmas gift for our family. I am going to take this day by day, and ake none of it for granted, this is merely an act in the big production that is my life, and the show must go on. I am scared, even though this is not my first time, but I am secure in knowing I have done this before.
Cheers to a new beginning, and this week is Thanksgiving and I will kick it off by remaining especially thankful for my babies.
Monk C.
